What's a man if he gains the whole world,but looses his soul?

Loose My Soul-Toby Mac,featuring Kirk Franklin and Mandisa

Man I Wanna Tell Ya'll Something, Man.
Man I'm Not Gonna Let These Material Thing's, Get In My Way, Ya'll.
I'm Trying To Get Somewhere.
I'm Trying To Get Somewhere, That's Real And Pure And True And Eternal.

Father God, I Am Clay In Your Hands,
Help Me To Stay That Way Through All Life's Demands,
'cause They Chip And They Nag And They Pull At Me,
And Every Little Thing I Make Up My Mind To Be,
Like I'm Gonna Be A Daddy Whose In The Mix,
And I'm Gonna Be A Husband Who Stays Legit,
And I Pray That I'm An Artist Who Rises Above,
The Road That Is Wide And Filled With Self Love,
Everything That I See Draws Me,
Though It's Only In You That I Can Truly See That Its A Feast For The Eyes- A Low Blow To Purpose.
And I'm A Little Kid At A Three Ring Circus.

I Don't Want To Gain The Whole World,
And Lose My Soul,Don't Wanna Walk Away,
Let Me Hear The People Say.
I Don't Want To Gain The Whole World,
And Lose My Soul,Don't Wanna Walk Away,
Let Me Hear The People Say.

(Mr. Franklin, Step Up To The Mic Sir)

The Paparazzi Flashes,
And That They Think That It's You,But They Don't Know That Who You Are Is Not What You Do,
True, We Get It Twisted When We Peak At The Charts,
Yo Before We Part From The Start,
Where's Your Heart?
You A Pimp, Hustler?
Tell Me What's Your Title,
America Has No More Stars, Now We Call Them Idols,
You Sit Idle, While We Teach Prosperity,
The First Thing To Prosper Should Be Inside Of Me.
We're Free...
Not Because Of 22's On The Range,But Christ Came In Range,
We Said Yes Now We Changed,
Not The Same, Even Though I Made A Fall,
Since I Got That Call, No More Saul, Now I'm Paul.
(yep!)

I Don't Want To Gain The Whole World, And Lose My Soul,
Don't Wanna Walk Away, Let Me Hear The People Say.
I Don't Want To Gain The Whole World, And Lose My Soul,
Don't Wanna Walk Away, Let Me Hear The People Say.
Don't Wanna Walk Away,Don't Wanna Walk Away


(Mandisa's solo)

How Do I Sense The Tide That's Rising?
De-sensitizing Me From Living In Light Of Eternity,
How Do I Sense The Tide That's Rising?
It's Hypnotizing Me From Living In Light Of Eternity,
How Do I Sense The Tide That's Rising?
De-sensitizing Me From Living In Light Of Eternity.

(Lord What We Gonna Do,we're Relying On You, All Eyes Are On You Lord, All Eyes Are On You, All Eyes Are On You Jesus.)

I Don't Want To Gain The Whole World, And Lose My Soul,
Don't Wanna Walk Away, Let Me Hear The People Say.
(don't Let Me Lose My Soul, My Soul.)
I Don't Want To Gain The Whole World, And Lose My Soul,
(this Is My Honesty, Father, Won't You Cover Me.)
I Don't Want To Gain The Whole World, And Lose My Soul,
(don't Wanna Walk Away, And All Those People Say)
I Don't Want To Gain The Whole World, And Lose My Soul,
(don't Wanna Lose, I Don't Wanna Lose My Soul.)

Lord Forgive Us When We Get Consumed By The Things Of This World,
That Fight For Our Love, And Our Passion,
As Our Eyes Are Open Wide And On You.
Grant Us The Privilege Of Your World View,
And May Your Kingdom Be, What Wakes Us Up, And Lays Us Down.

I love Toby Mac's music,some is silly or crazy and some is really moving. Like this song. I love this song! I listen to it often in the truck if I am alone. It really moves me,like no song has in a long time. Sometimes I get frustrated or sad that we can't get ahead with money. Our nature is to want things and it never really stops. I have to remind myself that I won't die if we can't do things we want all the time or buy things we want. I believe God wants us to be prosperous and He'll bless us money wise, no doubt. But I don't believe He wants us to get everything we want. If so,then when do you learn discipline,self-control,and dying to your flesh? You really won't learn those things. If we are allowed to indulge ourselves with everything we want,we'd be spoilt brats,wouldn't we? I have to remind myself often that things I want and desire sometimes won't come to pass and to fulfill myself is not the command of my Lord. His command to to fulfill others desires and needs. Oh it's so hard sometimes. Having a child has shown me and taught me a lot. They help us die to our flesh if, we will allow them. I think that's one reason they are such a blessing. They're helping us be more like Jesus was as a servant,not a slave. A slave is made to serve someone,but a servant wishes to serve someone. At first, we may not want to stop what we are doing to serve our child if they need a diaper change,to be given a bottle,or put to bed. I mean, isn't what we're doing more important,anyways? I'm getting off the intended subject,sorry.

This song just really helps me to remember how we were raised. We didn't have a lot of money,not because my parents didn't try to make as much as possible,it was just how it was. One thing we always had was love and an ear to talk too. We never had braces,never had regular doctor visits,didn't go to a prestigious high school or college. We were just plain people. We didn't have new vehicles or a new house. We drove used vehicles and lived (always and parents still do) in a Mobile home,which we called our house. I remember one instance when the Pastor's daughter came to our home. Well, she turned around and called us and said, "There's just a trailer there, I didn't see your house." I really realized how this world can view things and how shallow people can be. I may never have a new home or a brand new vehicle,that's okay. If I do then I'll take it with no question,it's not that I don't want those things,but they can't be most important to me. I never want to put my husband in the position to work all the time or myself in the position where I have to work outside of our home,just for material things we don't really need. I see it happen way too often. It's amazing how God can use music to really teach you things about the scriptures. There's another song I love of his,but I'll share another time.

This is off topic,but I would love some suggestions for baby names. I really want to stick to Biblical names for a boy or girl. So suggest please!!! God Bless!

update of some sort

I missed writing At the Well today. I wasn't feeling well this morning. So keep me in your prayers. I'm going on 6 weeks this week. I go to the CNM on Thursday at 9. My SIL,Heather, will be staying with us Wednesday night so she can keep Daniel that next morning. That place has a lot of sick people,all pregnant too. I just don't want to bring Daniel there unless I have too.

I've been so tired. I remember these days when I was pregnant with Daniel. So draining. It's like no matter how much you sleep it's not enough. I know so many of you can relate to that. There has been some negative responses to our next baby,not from family,but others who know us. Most of them are: Are they crazy? Their boy is only a year old. Some days I do think I'm crazy. I'm chasing around Daniel trying to keep him from breaking things with another on the way. I have to stop a lot of the time and say Lord, I know that YOU know what You are doing. I hope that doesn't sound bad. I'm not naturally good with babies or young children. I have to have God's strength,love,patience,grace,and forgiveness everyday. God knows what we need,when we need it. I trust Him to bless us when He sees fit. And He has saw fit to bless us with another child. It is just really sad how our culture looks at children. They're a burden,instead of a blessing. They're another mouth to feed,instead of another mouth to teach God's Word too. We are just choosing to be different from this culture. We are choosing to be a peculiar people in everything we do. The sad thing is,most of the comments are coming from Christian people. I know it won't be easy,raising Daniel is not easy. But do those people think that it's easy for God to raise them or me, for that matter? I hope not. I know it's hard for God to raise me. I'm naturally very stubborn,head strong,and determined. Having a child has really made me look at God a lot different.

I really can't believe we're having another baby. Wow. Our family is growing! It's really neat! I'm married to my best friend,the love of my life. Our baby will be here before Thanksgiving and Christmas! Daniel will be glad when the baby can play with him. I'm not sure what he is going to think about it to begin with,though. He doesn't like for other children to cry ha! He will start crying. I can't believe he'll be almost 2 when the baby is here. My oh my! God is just so good to me. I would have never guessed I would be married with 2 babies by this time. I'll be 26 on Friday. Wow, that is even more crazy. I met my husband when I was 20,not knowing then he would be my husband. Now we share 2 babies together. It's funny how God works. I'm so thankful for my husband. I love him so much! He's so happy about the baby. He too is confident God knows when we need children and that He will take care of us. He's such an awesome man! He's my strong tower here on earth. I look up to him so much. hehe... I still write him letters. When he was in patrol school I kept a notebook with me and every single night for 6 months(not counting weekends when I saw him) I wrote him a letter. He's still got them. Every week I wrote him a letter and sent it in the mail scented with my perfume on it(well when they begin letting them receive mail). He's still got all them too. I always gave him cards too. He gave me a few,but isn't good with words he claims. I will treasure those days. We had no clue what God had in store for us. We still have no clue what His future plans are. We plan very loosely because in the past we planned too much and well God decided to change things. We pretty much go with His flow.

Oh last night, I went to Winter Jam with Robyn and Heather. Daniel went with us. It was so awesome! I'm still young at heart! Newsong was so anointed! Oh my! When they sang Arise My Love,I literally thought the arena was going to burst. Brandon Heath was good too. I love his song "Give Me Your Eyes". Oh and of course we were mainly there for Toby Mac. OH WOW! He rocked that place! Daniel was dancing and bopping his cute little head. He loves the music! If he hears Toby Mac's voice come on the t.v. or radio he stops and then starts dancing. I thought it may be too loud,but I saw a baby that was maybe 6 months old there!! I would not dare take one that young,but that's me. It was packed. We did not get there as early as needed,so we stood the whole time. It worked out best though. I called Mike on the phone and let him hear Toby haha I called my sister too,she used to love Toby Mac. It wasn't bad for $10 dollars. I'm not big on Hawk Nelson and I didn't know the 2 girls singing. I love Newsong though! They're an old time favorite! It started at 6 and ended around 9:30. Phillips,Craig,& Dean are coming to Pace,FL next week. We love them too!!! Mike is going to try to take off,so we can go. It's not far from Mobile and I'd hate to miss them. We maybe going to Jentezen Franklin's church in August with the MIL and SIL's,it depends. They went last year and loved it. I like him pretty good. My favorite is John Hagee. He shoots straight and does not miss.

An update on my Daddy too. He went back to the Psoratic Arthritis dr. today and he diagnosed him with it. He said he would give him some medicine,but not Embrel. I read about it and I strongly discouraged Mama from it. I am going to check up on this medicine too. God does not give you medicines to rid of one thing,only to cause something else. I just do not believe that. I'm not fond of medicines much anyways. You should find the root of the problem and treat it,not alleviate it. I'm going to help them find some natural herbs to use. I know God will heal him. He has healed his back and his knees. So prayer warriors stand in prayer. The devil is not going to get my Daddy in Jesus name!

I hate going to bed with my hubby. He's stil got 45 minutes to go. I'm going to go read some and wait for him. Just keep me and my family in your prayers. I hate feeling sick,not being able to tend to my men.