a little update on my pregnancy

Oh I had to be up at 7:30 to get ready. I was not even wanting to get up. Everything was good with me and the baby. My blood pressure was fine and I was at 149,but I had just eaten. :) I asked Cindy about the not going over 40 weeks and she said that the doctors did not want me too. She said we'll do what I want to do. She said they really want me to be induced. No way! Keep dreaming! She said that we'll do what I want as long as it is safe for the baby. She said she just has to tell patients who had a previous c-section that,the doctors order her too. I should have known that! She did tell me that she wants to check me at 36 weeks to see if she can feel if the baby has come down in the pelvis. She said if he/she hasn't, she is going to have me do hands and knees along with squatting to get him/her there. She said that I could have had him,but because of his positioning mostly I didn't. She said she even believes I could have had him being the size he was. You know how most doctors say little women can't have large babies. 8l I know she takes a lot of slack for not doing what they want her to concerning her patients,but I am so glad I found her. I know that I would not have been able to labor as long as I wanted with Daniel and I would have probably felt very defeated. Because of her I labored through every stage and know that it was not my body that was "damaged" or "unable". Some women's aren't I guess,but mine wasn't one of them. I know too that I would not be able to make the decision to let my body go into labor on it's own this time. I mean just because I had a section they want to rush things. I know they have to worry about a lot of malpractice issues. If something were to happen to me or the baby I would have no right to sue them,it was my choice,but unforunately not everyone thinks that way. That in itself is sad too.

I'm just so excited! :) I also asked about how I was doing with my weight and she said awesome! I have gained 3 lbs overall. I thought it was 5-10 lbs. I hope I don't come across vain. I told her I am just trying to do everything possible to avoid a section. It was heck on me. For some it's not and I'm glad b/c I do not want anyone to go through that pain and trouble. Like she said we'll do everything we can and if we don't have a VBAC we know we did everything we could. That's what happened last time. I am very proud of myself and my "team". We did great and I know we will this time again! :) I just feel so empowered. I am feeling great about this pregnancy. I was terrified with Daniel and felt so stupid for being so. I am going to try and go to some monthly ICAN(International Caesarean Awareness Network). She said that would be really helpful. The lady doing them is actually a friend of hers and Tammy's. Heidi and her mom,who is a Midwife, are doing them here in Mobile. I believe Heidi is trying for a VBAC also. I really need too,just gotta email to see when they are. I hope they do have them.

I go back June 17th for a regular appointment. Tammy is going to that one with me. It'll be another early one,but I like it better that way. I go June 4th for the ultrasound for the sex of the baby!!! We had scheduled that day,but Mike may be out of town. I'm going to try and change it to the 5th so my Mom can stay the night before and go with me. Two people think I am having a girl. What do ya'll think??? Lately, I've been having a feeling we're having a girl. I could be wrong,either one I'll be estatic over,just want a healthy baby! :) We decided on names too! It'll be Michael Aaron,call him Aaron or Elizabeth Hope,call her Elizabeth. We'll see. Our friends Brian and Amanda had their 3rd baby via c-section this morning. He was 6 lbs and 10 oz. How small! They are doing well! I have a cousin who just married last year and his wife is expecting in September,a boy. I also have a friend who is expecting in September. She's having a girl. Babies everywhere.

Thank you for prayers!

Thankful Thursday- Nature and Life

This will be short,but indeed sweet. Go check out Lynn at Spiritually Unequal Marriage who is hosting Thankful Thursday. She talks about being thankful for nature.

I love nature and the outdoors. You can just look at it and feel God everywhere. I love to talk walks and admire the beauty of His handiwork. It is truly amazing. Trees and flowers really are my favorite thing in nature and they are so amazing. Do you admire his splendor of the outdoors? The bees buzzing,the birds chirping,and the leaves rustling in the wind?

I am also thankful for life. Life God creates in a woman's womb. I am 18 weeks pregnant and it is amazing to know my body and God are forming this small human being. How Innocent and how pure. How amazing. How can you not believe in God? Our lives are so precious and dear. Thanks be to God for his amazing wonders!

Happy Thankful Thursday!

Happy Mother's Day!

My other angle on the way,16 weeks.

Daniel was so tired on the way home from church.

How precious!!

This was my second Mother's Day. Wow, I'm a Mother. It is still sinking into my little brain. What a blessing it is to be a Mother. I never dreamed I'd have children at the age of 24 and love it! Daniel is such a blessing. He's so adorable,sweet,loving,and funny. I don't know what I would do without him. I remember the days before him,but can't imagine life without him now. Oh and my other little one on the way. I am truly blessed. I'll have another little boy or a little girl that I can train in God's word,shower with love,and laugh with. I really never understand a Mother's love,until now. It has really shed a new light on the love God has for me. It's amazing and indescribable. I don't see how God turned his back on Jesus while he took our sin upon him and died on the cross. What a bittersweet occasion. I could never give my children up for others. I would do and do anything for Daniel and the baby. Daniel is at an amazing age. He's learning so much and teaching me so much. As I sit here writing,he's at my feet playing with his ABC magnets and a box,talking away. How can people harm these innocent angels?

I used to want to be in the law firm,then I wanted to do overseas missions. I still want to do mission work,but I've realized a lot. I have the greatest job,if you want to call it that, in the world. I am teaching Daniel to be kind,loving,caring,respectful,and gentle. I am modeling what his wife should be like,a Godly wife/mother. I could have possibly be going down another road right now,if I would have listened to my own will. I could possibly be in a foreign country with no husband or children. Oh what I would be missing! My passion to reach others has turned to reaching my own son and baby on the way. It's funny how God will mold you,but not mold you how you expect Him too. You pray mold me,Lord and use me. Most of the time He does it in a way you would never believe.

The Proverbs 31 Woman takes on a whole new meaning for me. Especially verse 28, "Her children arise up, and call her blessed; her husband also, and he praiseth her. " I pray my children will be able to arise and call me blessed one day. A lot of my views on things have changed. You really never know that love until you are giving that love. I have a picture frame above our bed that says, "Love grows by giving. The only love we keep is the love we give away." How true that is. Love also never stops giving. I wouldn't trade anything for the smiles Daniel gives me,even in the womb. One of the ultrasound pictures we have of him, he is smiling so big! It's amazing!! And he still has that same grin that we love. I thank God for allowing me to be a Mother. I'm not worthy of the calling,nor do I deserve such wonderful children,but He has entrusted them to Mike and I.

As for my second Mother's Day. It was wonderful! We went to church,enjoyed a powerful message,then came home. We picked up some Churches chicken and ate at home. It was nice. I received 2 books: 5 Minutes A Day:365 Devotional For Women and Pray Big For Your Child: The Power of Praying God's Promises for Your Child's Life by Will Davis Jr. Next year I'll have my 2 year old and 7 month old baby to celebrate with! How exciting and rewarding. Oh no one could make a paycheck out enough for the rewards I receive daily. Moms are paid with hugs and kisses. That's what I have learned most about being a Mother, my reward isn't earthly,but heavenly. How amazing!

Happy Mother's Day to all you Momma's and Momma's to be!! God Bless you!