what has been going on?

My it seems like weeks since I have been on here to update about anything in detail. I'll start with Winter Jam and next my appointment.

February 16:
I was so excited to go to Winter Jam! It was a gift from Mike,although he couldn't make it. Robyn and Heather picked Daniel and I up for it. It was packed! Oh goodness,we waited in line to get in for at least 15 minutes. We could never find a seat. Every time we asked if seats were available they told us they were saved. So we ended up standing near a rail,but we had a good view. It was just rough to stand. I wore tennis shoes,the only smart one. ;) Robyn and Heather held Daniel a good bit. Newsong was amazing! When they did Arise My Love, oh wow! Such power came over me,such love. Brandon Heath was good too,he just seemed really shy. Toby Mac of course rocked the house. Daniel loved it! He recognized the music! We had a blast. I may have written about this,sorry if I have,my memory isn't the best. :)

February 19:
Almost a week from this day I started feeling sick. I only vomited once,but would feel sick all day. I used the preggie pops and they did help. They are tasty too! :) So I wasn't feeling to wonderful this morning,but did eat a banana on the way to my appointment. I woke up to a note from my wonderful husband. He's so caring and sweet. The day before I picked up Heather,my SIL, and she stayed the night so she would be able to keep Daniel Thursday morning. I wasn't nervous like last time. I actually got there 15 minutes early and got in early. I weighed in at 146lbs and my blood pressure was fine. Cindy made it in there and was very excited to see me! We talked a bit and I was eased by talking to her. I am 6 weeks,I was just 5 last week. I can't believe how soon I found out. She didn't give me an actual date,which is fine. I got sick of everyone making a big deal out of the date. You never know when it will come. I will ask next time so people will not complain about it though. It will approximately come anywhere in the first 3 weeks in October. She doesn't want me going over 40 weeks. I wasn't quite sure what she would say about me being pregnant so soon after a C-section. She asked me before I could ask her about a VBAC. She wanted to know if I wanted one? And of course I told her yes! She said okay we can do it! I was so happy and relieved! She said the hospital doesn't have any certain policy on it. I told her I had been exercising,walking,and taking vitamins. She was pleased,but told me I may not be able to get the prenatal ones down the next few weeks and she is so right. She said that she does believe if I don't eat sweets (treat myself occasionally) and don't drink anything other than water it will make a difference. I believe it will too. The only problem I had was that Daniel was not in the position he needed to be. I asked her if I went to long last time and she said no. She said if I would have been in danger or Daniel she would have not let me keep laboring. I was happy to hear that too. I let her know we did have some negative feed back about how long I labored. She said it was nonsense,I was doing what my body was wanting me to do. I'm so glad I get to use her again! She did the pap smear and felt my uterus. It did not even hurt!! She said the breastfeeding widen my pelvic some. So that is good news too! She gave me a book to find and a number to get in touch with some ladies who meet and discuss VBAC's during the week or once a month. I'm going to call them tomorrow. I'm sure it will be helpful! :) I had some blood work done too,which I hate. Yuk! I thought I was gonna cry when she stuck the needle in my arm. Having insurance is so wonderful too! I filled out some info and paid the copay. It's only $25 dollars. Oh such a blessing after the $500 we paid with Daniel each visit for 7 months. It was a good day! I go back March 19th at 9:30. I'm not sure if Mike has off that day. If he does work it'll probably be afternoon shift,so he can keep Daniel or come with me. We'll be able to hear the heartbeat that time.

The Weekend:
And thank you for your prayers. Since Sunday I have not felt sick. I have been taking the Phenergan before I go to sleep,but I was doing that Friday and Saturday and still feeling sick. Friday,my birthday, I wasn't feeling too well and Mike wasn't either. We did not go to the outlet mall in Daphne. Another reason is because it was FREEZING and I didn't want Daniel out in it. We lounged for the most part and then he took me to Olive Garden. Oh SO good!!! Daniel enjoyed it too! He got me a set of hot rollers for my birthday and a sugar free Chocolate Creme Pie. :) He knows me too well. Haley and Wesley had Landon's birthday party Saturday since they left this morning for North Carolina. So we went to that,even though we both weren't feeling well. Daniel had so much fun with his cousins! :) They bought a brand new travel camper and it's nice! They'll be gone for 8 weeks. She said they are in a small town,it doesn't even have a Wal-Mart,I'll have to ask which is it. Some of you gals may be close to her. So be praying for them as they are away from home. Haley just texted me and said she burnt her left hand really bad. :-(

Randomness:
We enjoyed the rest of our off days just around Mobile. It's neat to know our family is growing. We also got a Bible study to do. It's called Experiencing God,some of you may have heard of it. It's great so far! I haven't been craving as much stuff as I was. Oh but I do want some chicken from Foosackly's and their foosackly sauce. YUM! I have to start walking again tomorrow. I am taking my folic acid vitamin,but can't get the prenatal or Super B-Complex down. Blah! We haven't looked at names anymore. I really like Michael Timothy or Michael Ryan. Oh and we found out Daniel can face the front. We found a car seat that turns into a booster that we are going to purchase this weekend. We also found bunk beds we are going to get. I think that would be more practical for now. We'll just have to buy a dresser for their room,since we'll need more drawers. :) Oh and Daniel has been sleeping on a mattress on the floor in our room. He did fine the first 2 nights. The second 2 he realized where he was,so we just put him in the bed with us. He just kicks so hard. He'll wake us up by kicking us in his sleep. :-/ For nap time he sleeps on the mattress and never knows it haha Kids are so funny. I think overtime he'll sleep there even when he realizes he's not in the bed with us. Mike has been getting up with him so I can get sleep and be up with him during the day. He's such a great husband. He's so considerate and caring. I'm blessed to be his wife. :) I guess that's about all. Mike went back to work today,he's still on the afternoon/night shift. Daniel has taken to him more since he's been getting up with him at night.

I have been sitting with Daniel once or twice a day reading a book to him,just a very simple one. It's helped with his tension span really and it's amazing. I am repeating 2 words a week to him. He tries to say book and balloon,it is just mind blowing. He's got lots of potential. hehe.. I'm bragging on my handsome son. He just ran in here with a clear bag over his head lol He is always making us laugh. I'll leave ya'll with that. Sorry if I read and don't comment or if I haven't read at all. You are all in my thoughts and prayers. :)

God bless!

hello

My appointment went great! I just haven't had time to write about it. Cindy is in all agreement to work with me for a VBAC! She was so excited to see me! Just keep me in your prayers. I feel yuk all day,it's a sick feeling. I'll try to eat,then feel sick,but not throw up. I have Phenergan and waiting for Zofran to come in. I need a 24 hour sickness pill that isn't drowsy. We're trying to fight off a cold,not Daniel thankfully,and trying to enjoy off days. I had a good birthday,just yuk feeling. I got some hot rollers and ate at Olive Garden. We'll be getting Daniel a big boy bed,front facing seat,and potty next weekend! He slept on a mattress on the floor last night and he was fine. I pray he stays that way. I'm already uncomfortable sleeping. Mike got up with him if he needed something,which helped me get much sleep. He's learning to sit while I read to him too. I'm craving anything we don't have in the house,which is frustrating. Well, I should be going. Thanks for the kind words and sorry I haven't been visiting blogs.

Here is something I was sent last night. Thought many of you may be interested. Red Envelope Day.

update of some sort

I missed writing At the Well today. I wasn't feeling well this morning. So keep me in your prayers. I'm going on 6 weeks this week. I go to the CNM on Thursday at 9. My SIL,Heather, will be staying with us Wednesday night so she can keep Daniel that next morning. That place has a lot of sick people,all pregnant too. I just don't want to bring Daniel there unless I have too.

I've been so tired. I remember these days when I was pregnant with Daniel. So draining. It's like no matter how much you sleep it's not enough. I know so many of you can relate to that. There has been some negative responses to our next baby,not from family,but others who know us. Most of them are: Are they crazy? Their boy is only a year old. Some days I do think I'm crazy. I'm chasing around Daniel trying to keep him from breaking things with another on the way. I have to stop a lot of the time and say Lord, I know that YOU know what You are doing. I hope that doesn't sound bad. I'm not naturally good with babies or young children. I have to have God's strength,love,patience,grace,and forgiveness everyday. God knows what we need,when we need it. I trust Him to bless us when He sees fit. And He has saw fit to bless us with another child. It is just really sad how our culture looks at children. They're a burden,instead of a blessing. They're another mouth to feed,instead of another mouth to teach God's Word too. We are just choosing to be different from this culture. We are choosing to be a peculiar people in everything we do. The sad thing is,most of the comments are coming from Christian people. I know it won't be easy,raising Daniel is not easy. But do those people think that it's easy for God to raise them or me, for that matter? I hope not. I know it's hard for God to raise me. I'm naturally very stubborn,head strong,and determined. Having a child has really made me look at God a lot different.

I really can't believe we're having another baby. Wow. Our family is growing! It's really neat! I'm married to my best friend,the love of my life. Our baby will be here before Thanksgiving and Christmas! Daniel will be glad when the baby can play with him. I'm not sure what he is going to think about it to begin with,though. He doesn't like for other children to cry ha! He will start crying. I can't believe he'll be almost 2 when the baby is here. My oh my! God is just so good to me. I would have never guessed I would be married with 2 babies by this time. I'll be 26 on Friday. Wow, that is even more crazy. I met my husband when I was 20,not knowing then he would be my husband. Now we share 2 babies together. It's funny how God works. I'm so thankful for my husband. I love him so much! He's so happy about the baby. He too is confident God knows when we need children and that He will take care of us. He's such an awesome man! He's my strong tower here on earth. I look up to him so much. hehe... I still write him letters. When he was in patrol school I kept a notebook with me and every single night for 6 months(not counting weekends when I saw him) I wrote him a letter. He's still got them. Every week I wrote him a letter and sent it in the mail scented with my perfume on it(well when they begin letting them receive mail). He's still got all them too. I always gave him cards too. He gave me a few,but isn't good with words he claims. I will treasure those days. We had no clue what God had in store for us. We still have no clue what His future plans are. We plan very loosely because in the past we planned too much and well God decided to change things. We pretty much go with His flow.

Oh last night, I went to Winter Jam with Robyn and Heather. Daniel went with us. It was so awesome! I'm still young at heart! Newsong was so anointed! Oh my! When they sang Arise My Love,I literally thought the arena was going to burst. Brandon Heath was good too. I love his song "Give Me Your Eyes". Oh and of course we were mainly there for Toby Mac. OH WOW! He rocked that place! Daniel was dancing and bopping his cute little head. He loves the music! If he hears Toby Mac's voice come on the t.v. or radio he stops and then starts dancing. I thought it may be too loud,but I saw a baby that was maybe 6 months old there!! I would not dare take one that young,but that's me. It was packed. We did not get there as early as needed,so we stood the whole time. It worked out best though. I called Mike on the phone and let him hear Toby haha I called my sister too,she used to love Toby Mac. It wasn't bad for $10 dollars. I'm not big on Hawk Nelson and I didn't know the 2 girls singing. I love Newsong though! They're an old time favorite! It started at 6 and ended around 9:30. Phillips,Craig,& Dean are coming to Pace,FL next week. We love them too!!! Mike is going to try to take off,so we can go. It's not far from Mobile and I'd hate to miss them. We maybe going to Jentezen Franklin's church in August with the MIL and SIL's,it depends. They went last year and loved it. I like him pretty good. My favorite is John Hagee. He shoots straight and does not miss.

An update on my Daddy too. He went back to the Psoratic Arthritis dr. today and he diagnosed him with it. He said he would give him some medicine,but not Embrel. I read about it and I strongly discouraged Mama from it. I am going to check up on this medicine too. God does not give you medicines to rid of one thing,only to cause something else. I just do not believe that. I'm not fond of medicines much anyways. You should find the root of the problem and treat it,not alleviate it. I'm going to help them find some natural herbs to use. I know God will heal him. He has healed his back and his knees. So prayer warriors stand in prayer. The devil is not going to get my Daddy in Jesus name!

I hate going to bed with my hubby. He's stil got 45 minutes to go. I'm going to go read some and wait for him. Just keep me and my family in your prayers. I hate feeling sick,not being able to tend to my men.

At the Well- All About Marriage

I love the new At the Well blog and the daily things the ladies share and give us a chance to reflect on. Today is all about marriage,something very dear to my heart.

I love my husband,Mike, so much! He is so wonderful! He makes me laugh,smile,get frustrated at times,and feel beautiful. I love it all about him,not just the good qualities. That is what makes a relationship,loving all the qualities of the other. If we only loved the good qualities of our spouse, we'd be mad a lot of the time. We'd be mad because they,along with us,have bad qualities that show daily. If we did not embrace those also, it would not as God designed marriage to be. They see our bad qualities too. So think about it that way.

I came to post about what I have seen in the past month and a half. I have seen a lot of differences in men and women. Men are not naturally soothing,sensitive,or gentle. They have trouble expressing their feelings and sometimes emotions. Unlike women, who can express their feelings and emotions pretty easy. If we take away the nit and grit from our men,what do we have? Not a strong,protective man,that's for sure. Men are supposed to be different from us and our husbands as well. That's not saying they aren't supposed to have manners,but they aren't going to be just like us. Men naturally don't care if the house isn't spotless every day. They naturally don't like to be rushed or put on a time frame. They don't like to plan as much,but they like to be spontaneous. Let me say, at least that's what I'm learning about my husband. I should not try to change him into something similar to me either. We compliment each other. I know one woman who broke her husband down,though it really started in his childhood with his Mother. The wife just picked up where the Mother stopped. It's sad. He's basically a man without a will. We cannot do that to our husbands. If we see something that they are doing wrong,we should pray for them. We should pray God shows them their sin. At first, I wanted to tell Mike things,no I did tell Mike things I thought he shouldn't do. Then, God convicted me. He told me to pray for myself first,then for my husband. Ouch! That's what I am learning and it's amazing what God will do. I don't pray selfishly concerning my husband. But if I feel like we don't need to do something or we need to do something different I just pray God you show Him the truth and Your way. Wow, has He come through every time. We are to be women with a quiet,gentle spirit. I'm learning that being modest, isn't only pertaining to clothing. It has to do with how we conduct ourselves in and out of the home. I pray someone is encouraged or enlightened! Have a blessed day!

Prayer Request and our cabinets

Here are the new cabinets!!


I just love how it looks! There is so much room in them too! They have the piece that goes behind the stover,it's on order. Right now it's ugly back there!

I love the color of the cabinets,they match our stuff in the living room.

I love the white tile behind the sink,it really brightens up the kitchen!!!

Here is the bathroom with new cabinets. The counter is wider so our garbage can doesn't fit between the cabinet and the toilet like it did. Oh well!

And the vanity area,which I love! That's all my stuff up there haha Mike doesn't have as much as I do. We have lots of space under both sinks. Forgive the mirrors,this was the day I put everything back in and didn't clean the mirrors.

So onto more important things...

Daddy went to another doctor today for a nerve testing. He is in severe pain. Once he got saved he started being bold about his faith with others. Well, in the last 4 or 5 months he hasn't went hardly anywhere. So he's not been able to share with others,he doesn't use the phone much. I know it's the devil just trying to shut up him! So we're believing for a healing. Those who believe in healing,stand in prayer with us. Thank you! He'll go back to the arthritis doctor Monday.

awesomeness,potty training,& baby names

I'm just amazed at God. He is so amazing! I just read a story at MadeToShine's diary that made me want to shout for joy!( I have a diary at bloopdiary) How can we not want to serve the awesome God, Jehovah? I mean,come on! He cares so much about our every need. It's just unreal to hear stories like this and know there are people who don't believe. No matter what they feel about other Christians or Christianity,how can you not give God a try? I feel sorry for those who do not know His goodness,mercy,grace,forgiveness,love,kindness,awesomeness,might,strength,joy,peace,comfort,and so on. I do not know what I would be like without all of those things that God freely gives me and shows me. Without God I would not be who am I or where I am in life. I know for sure that God has proved himself over and over to me personally. Even though I fail Him daily, He will forgive me if I ask for it and never remember my sin. I mean, a m a z i n g!

Our cabinets are so nice! I love them! I still can't get my computer to upload them for some reason. I looked through my baby name book earlier and wrote down some names I like. I tried to put some together too. Mike isn't fond of Hannah Joye or Michael Timothy. He does like Michael Brian. :-) Here are some names I like: Girl:Ada,Allie,Anah,Annalise,Ava,Beth,Bianca,Brianna,Hannah,Kate,Laurel,Marie,Mackayla,Olivia,and Shiloh. Boy: Benjamin,Bennett,Elliott,Isaiah,James,Jonathan,Josiah,Kadin,Noah,and Stephen. Now here are some I put together: Michael Timothy,Hannah Joye,Joshua Caleb,Mary Kate,Aaron Seth,Olivia Kate, and Mackayla Anah. I love the name Kate,oh I have fallen in love with it! I really like Olivia Kate! I love the name Joshua and Aaron too. I know it's early,but by the time we find out what the baby is I want a name picked out. So you like? Any other name suggestions? I'm secretly, really, wanting a girl. I am sure you all knew this. I just can't help it,I think it's human nature. Of course, I'll love it even if it's a boy,I would not trade anything for Daniel Paul. And I just love that name! Too bad I can't name them all that haha How crazy would that be? I thought about using Paul for the middle name of each boy,but I don't know. It may not sound right.

I have been doing my exercises and continuing to eat good. No sweets and no sodas. I'm trying to drink the amount of water recommended. I also started walking this morning. I loaded Daniel up and we walked around the complex. Mike assured me I would be fine. I was. :-) There wasn't hardly anyone at home and Glenn was about doing maintenance if I needed him. I walked for 30 minutes. I'm going to attempt to do that every day. I really need too. I am still talking my vitamins too! I'm just so proud of myself! Last time was very trying,but I feel so inspired this time. I see my goal,to have a VBAC, and know what I need to do (some) to get there. I have been tempted by some brownies,but I did not give in ha! I can't wait to go see Cindy! I'm sure Tammy will want to see me soon after the 1st visit. For those who don't know, Cindy is a Certified Nurse Midwife and Tammy is a Doula (Child Birth Assistant) and midwife. I used them last time together and it was wonderful!

Daniel has pee peed in the potty 5 times since Friday!! He did it once Friday,twice Saturday,once yesterday,and once today! I think he actually understands what I want him to do. Saturday night Mike sit him on the potty and said pee pee on the potty. Well, after a few minutes he was acting frustrated. I thought he just wanted off. So I waited a few more minutes,then took him off and he had used the bathroom. I think he did it to begin with and was wanting to get off haha This morning when he woke up I put him on it and said lets change diaper,pee pee on the potty. He did it. We give him a small marsh mellow for a reward haha We clap and act all happy,but he doesn't seemed too impressed. It's hilarious. He is such a smart boy, really. I'm just going to keep doing it everyday. It's so neat to watch him learn. I usually put him on it about 10 minutes after he drinks something,after he wakes up,or after a bath,those times seem to work. He hasn't pooped yet,it's hard to know when he'll do that. I'm sure ya'll just want to hear about my son's bathroom experiences.

I am gonna run now. My post before is At the Well,be sure to check it out! Hope everyone has a blessed week!!

What are your motives?

Today At the Well, we are discussing what are you motives behind the things you do. It's a good question. I'm in the stage of life where I really don't do anything outside of the home as far as cooking for church things or singing in the choir. I mainly do things at home. So most of the questions below don't apply to me. I can ask myself why I do the things at home I do. Why do I keep the house clean? Why do I take care of Daniel? Is it because I want praise from my husand and family members? Or is it because I want myself to look "good" in their eyes? I do those things because I love to do them. I love taking care of our home and our son. It's a blessing. I not only love it,but I know it pleases God. I know this is short and sweet,but Daniel is waking up. So ask yourself these questions and examine your motives.

Do you go to church to fulfill an obligation?
Do you get involved to get a reaction from someone; possibly pity, recognition or even money?
Do you volunteer in your child’s classroom to analyze the new teacher or is it to help?
Do you share prayer requests for a chance to gossip or because you truly care and are praying?

God Bless!

finally!

Ahhh our cabinets are finally finished!!! I can go back to living normal again. I can cook,clean,and relax in my own home. I really love them! They give us so much more space,it's great! They started on them around 2:30 yesterday and weren't finished until 7 that night. Daniel was not happy about staying in his bedroom,but they were steady working. He wanted to see what they were doing haha Mike took me out to Sabor A Mexico,since we still couldn't use anything. Pattie wanted to make sure they were installed right and we had no leaks. He even said he was going to treat me to dessert since I've done so well. I know it's only been a week haha but you guys have no idea how much I love sweets! I just got a glazed donut from Krispy Kreme. I took some pictures,but my computer is being stubborn right now so I'll try to upload them sometime soon. I'm pretty tired too. I am going to bath Daniel and we're going to sit and play. Mike had to work today,but will have Saturday and Sunday off. It'll be nice. We've got many clothes to wash tomorrow and Sunday we're going to church.

I've been taking my vitamins that I need too and drinking only water. I've been doing really good. I just hope I can keep it up. I also found some exercises I can do that I've actually started. We have a few things to get accomplished or semi-accomplished before the new baby arrives. I just hope it all goes smoothly.

First, we've got to get Daniel to go to sleep without being rocked and sleep on his own mattress. Something I was not looking to do for a while,but now it has to happen. I'm going to miss him sleeping in the bed with us. I love him so much! I don't want him to think we're being mean,but there will be no way for us all 4 to fit in the bed. We're going to blow up our air mattress for right now and put it on our floor. We'll start with him going to sleep without being rocked,just us laying down with him,then we'll go to moving to another bed. I think he'll be okay. He sleeps most night better before we come to bed. I'll be nursing the new baby and it'll be sleeping with us.

Second, we have to have Daniel semi-potty trained. I want him to the point that he knows what the potty is for. So maybe he can point or tug at his diaper when he has to go. It'll make it much easier on me and him really. I've been sitting him on it some today,but I've missed each time he pee peed. So we'll keep working with him.

Third, we have to have a new vehicle. Our truck isn't going to be big enough. I suggested a Ford Explorer like Mike's Mom has. It's nice and pretty big inside. He said we would get something bigger since we aren't sure how many kids we'll actually have. He's thinking a Tahoe or a Yukon for now. A friend of mine has a like a huge van,but right now we don't need that haha. She and her husband have 7 children. We do need something bigger though,not brand new though. We're saving money now and by July or August we'd like to purchase one. So be keeping all of this in your prayers.

Daniel is so cute! He is learning so much too. He loves to stand and look out our bedroom window,especially if Mike is outside working on his car. He loves to play chase and peek-a-boo. He's just so darn adorable!! He was cute when I put him on the potty chair. He sort of looked at me and found his private,then starting playing with it. I told him private and pee pee. He just giggled. He is growing up so fast! I am going to miss rocking him! I have never complained about this. It's my favorite! He'll go right to sleep on my chest. I love that little boy so much! How could I love more than I do now? He points a lot now and jabbers so much. I'm not sure what age they usually start saying words,but boy does he ever try. Today, when we woke up from his nap he found 2 of Mike's uniform shirts in the laundry basket. So he picks them up and takes them to him. It was SO cute! He's like a little man!

My appointment with Cindy is February 19 at 9. I'm actually excited about it! I'm on the insurance and I sort of know what to expect at the visits. I emailed her about us expecting again and she was happy! I know God will take care of everything. All I have to do is put it in His hands and trust Him like last time. Thank you for your prayers!! I will hopefully be able to read blogs and post entries for At the Well and Thankful Thursday this week! God Bless!

Oi vey!

We were told to clear out all our cabinets in the house by Feb. 4th for new ones to be installed. The notice was given to our building G. So we did that Tuesday. Yesterday morning 8 came and no one. 9,10,so we left for the day. I was just stressing out. Daniel was getting into everything because it's all on the floor in boxes. We were hoping to come home too new cabinets and counter tops yesterday afternoon,but we didn't. I am just ready for all my stuff to be back in place. Daniel can't play,I can't cook,so we have to eat out. We are hoping they will be here today to do them. If not I'm going to put everything back tomorrow by 3 if they aren't here,I've got too Daniel just can't help himself. Mike goes back to work tomorrow too. I was perfectly fine with our "crappy ones" as the landlord called them. I am glad that they are getting this done before the new baby gets here though,wow. That would not be fun. We put in for them to install them after hours if needs be,but the only slot is Saturday. There's no way we can keep everything out that long. They were supposed to be done by Friday. I'm telling you I am moody during pregnancy,I remember how moody I was with Daniel. I'm trying to just relax,but the house is my domain ya know? The granite counter tops will be wonderful,once they're here. The cabinets will be nice too,I just wish they would hurry it up! I'm just trying not to loose my mind!! So please pray they get these things in soon.

Daniel is so cute! He had a blast with Heather yesterday. She's going to stay with us the 18th so she can keep him the morning of the 19th while I go to the dr. That place is always full of sick people,I really don't want to take Daniel to it. It's enough I have to be around them. I'm not sure what USA's policy is concerning VBAC's,but I'll be talking to Cindy about all this. I'm gonna have to get her to be honest with me about it all b/c if she tells me they are going to lord over her until I have a c-section I may opt for a home birth seriously. I know I can do it. Last time I was home for 31 hours laboring. I don't want to be a statistic,ya know? I want the chance to give birth vaginally,I deserve it. I know my body can do it. And there are no birthing centers near by,so that's out. That is why I am going to try my best to keep my weight down. I know some babies are just big babies,but I'm going to do what I can to eat healthy so the baby won't gain in excessive on my part. I won't be eating much sweets,soda's,lots of bread and pasta like last time. I gained almost 60 lbs. I'm 5 foot,so I don't need to gain that much. 25 lbs is really all I need to gain. I started some exercises yesterday that are pregnancy safe. I found a neat site, babyfit.com and I signed up. It's got recipes,nutrition facts,and exercise routines. I've not drank any soda's nor ate anything sweet! I have been taking my vitamins too. I found the ones that Tammy gave me,the multi-vitamin ones. I haven't walked besides us being in stores. It's not the safest to go to the park here alone or walk around the complex. Not so much the people in the complex are dangerous,but we live in the urban part of town and lots of people wander in here. Patti has to run them off. I just don't want to chance walking alone with Daniel. Plus,it's been too cold for even the 3 of us go walk with him.

Ok,I am going to find something to eat,although I can't cook. Pattie said be ready at anytime for them to show up. :-p Frustrating? yes. But it's part of living in a complex.